PAIN!!!!

first and foremost...i feel like i wanna die!!! besides the time when i was ambulanced to hospital...this is the worst pain i've experienced...

went to remove a wisdom tooth today. even when the doctor was stitching me up i was starting to feel the pain already. and now, after i changed the gauze, it's hurting even worse. WTH!!!!!!!!

~PAIN~

sigh. before the pain started, i was at queensway changing the grip for the 2 rackets my aunt gave me. while waiting for Tian i was thinking and thinking and thinking about some stuff. then this phrase came to me...

心跳的頻率, 是愛的指引嗎?

then along the way home on the long long bus ride ( totally miss taking a long bus ride), i started to think about alot of stuff. the past and present, and even dared to venture alittle into the future.

but then again, after the carrot incident, i seriously dun dare to imagine futures and feelings anymore. in a way, I'm starting to fear 'maybe's.

oh well...back to trying to get over the pain...in my mouth la!

I'm Back!!!

Wahaha. Not that I've been away for long, just that I haven't been updating my blog since forever. Hee. And I realise I've procrastinated for sooooooooooooooooooo long that I've got photos from a few years back to share. Haha. Well, maybe I'll just skip the old photos (maybe just randomly place them here when I feel like it. Hee) and share my latest trip to Perth.

Basically, on the first day, we woke up bright and early to go to the airport and took half a day to arrive at Perth by flight. By the time we checked in and went out for dinner, it was already past 5pm, and the shops were mostly closed for the day as it always is in Australia. And there's hardly any interesting TV to watch!!! We ended the trip getting addicted to Discovery Channel, especially Dirty Jobs, don't ask me why but I just love that show. Haha.

Anyway, the next day saw us rising bright and early. Somehow, the sky was already bright before 6am!!! And there's a time difference of 1hour, meaning that I've woken up at 5am (Singapore time) for 2 consecutive days!!! zzzzzzzzzzz

Day 2 was one of the most enjoyable days. We went to the Caversham Wildlife Park where there were animals and blue sky.

Some photos taken at the park...totally love the koala!!!

After that, we headed for a chocolate factory where the chocolates were all handmade. Was busy tasting the yummy chocolates so didn't take pictures there. Hee. We then moved on to a nearby winery. The scenery there was great! took alot of pictures there. It's turning summer when we were there so this tree bearing purple flowers was blossoming everywhere we went, just so pretty!

There were grape vines all along the way.
But didn't get a chance to get near them.

After that we stopped by a non-working farm, ie it's not actually a farm, it's just got a farm ambiance for the tourists. We had barbecue lunch buffet there. The lamb was yummy!!! The owner even made us some kangaroo meat. But it was not well done so basically it was still dripping bloody water!!! Only tried 2 pieces. Haha. But the view outside was quite pretty and peaceful.

Some shots taken behind our lunching place.

Finally, we arrived at Springhill Farm where we were to stay the night. There was supposed to be some farm activities in the afternoon when we arrived but it started to drizzle and it just wouldn't stop. So we couldn't do much but hand around near the bunks. This was a real working farm and it's about a tenth the size of Singapore, though it's only considered average sized! And it's a family-runned farm with only 5 working adults on the farm! I wonder how they manage that~~~

That's me sitting in a real tractor...it's got a hood!!!
There were some animals in front of our bunk and
they were our main entertainment there...
And there's Ollie!!! I love the dog! It's so cute!
When we were there it started to running around as if it wanted to play with us.
It pounced onto me and tried to lick my face when I tried to pat it!!!

This is the scenery from our corridor!!

Basically, being outback means there's no street lights and when it's night time, it's all dark out there. AND YOU CAN SEE THE STARS!!! It's so clear you can really tell where's the milky way!

Phew! I'm tired from typing and collaging all that photos. I'll carry on another time about the rest of the trip, including our freezing 'adventure' waiting for the sun rise. Till then!

Disappointment

I never knew the true feeling of disappointment until now.

I don't even want to talk to you about it. Even when you ask. Everything just feels too late. No matter what you say no matter what you do. Somethings can never be undone.

It used to be something so detached that made me disappointed in you. Now, the feeling just won't go away.

Now I understand how it feels to be unwanted.

原来在你心里我是这样的。。。

成绩不好，就是坏。

坦率，是无礼。

要自由，是不要家。

坚持，是任性。

同样是朋友，我的却是损友。

不一样的成绩单，却同样是我错。

我要的，只是偶尔的一句赞赏、多一点认同。

可是，原来一直以来，在你们心里，我似乎从没达到你们的要求。即使我再努力，好像都没用。反正，在你们心里， 我已经是这样的一个人，我做的一切，你们都已经认定是错的。那我又何必拼命的逼自己去做一个你们要的、却不是自己的我？

Please support IndulgenceLink*!

Hey everyone!

I've just started this online shop with my friend selling handmade accessories and we've just completed our very first series of earrings and placed them on the blog http://indulgencelink.wordpress.com. Please drop by and take a look and let me know what you think of it and how I'm doing. And also see if you like any of the items ok? Haha.

Anyway, about this first series, it's named Simple Indulgence*. It's name probably says everything. The items are all of very simple designs. Nothing too fanciful. A couple of reasons for this.

First of all, we're both newbies in the area of handmade accessories. Besides having worn them myself, I've never in my entire life made any accessories on my own. So this very first series of earrings is actually the very first few pairs of earrings my friend and I have made in our entire life!! So understandably, there's no way we can come up with anything fanciful right at this moment.

Also, the exams are just round the corner. There's absolutely insufficient time for us to learn those fanciful wire twisting or come up with anything jaw dropping within a short span of under a week. Yes, we actually used a very short 5 days to get this online shop running. We decided to set it up last Friday, so we spent the entire afternoon thinking of a name, looking for some bead shops, looking through reference books in the library and setting up our blog and email account. And the weekend was spent fine-tuning the details in the blog and email account, thinking of the general operation process and brainstorming for themes. Yes, believe me when I tell you I've got at least 20 themes right now.

I'm actually pretty surprised how I actually found the drive to rush out everything without any procrastination, besides the fact that my friend was breathing down my neck making sure I completed the blog. Somehow, I'm still puzzled by myself right now.

And anyway, shouldn't everything start simple? And slowly we'll move on to more complex stuff -excited-

Hahz. So people, please do give me some feedback and suggestions so that I can improve ok?

Haha. Tired right now...need to go zzz, there's class tomorrow morning. Nightz world!

Lost

Sometimes I try so hard not to remind myself. But the harder I try...the more it bugs me.

It sucks being stuck in something that I have absolutely lost interests in. Counting the days as it pass, wondering if I'll survive the remaining time or will I screw up and end up extending my nightmare.

I've never in my entire life been such a let down with no sense of guilt...

This just sucks.

p/s: And I'm starving...took my last meal 25 hours ago... -faint-

Spinning world

Oh Man~~~

I'm sick and feeling giddy. And the feeling has been there for 2 days now...Even after going to the doctor and taking medicine didn't really help.

And I have a quiz tomorrow...and presentation this friday...which hasn't been compiled yet.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THERE'S CONSOL QUIZ RIGHT AFTER NEXT WEEK'S BREAK!!!!!!!!!

SOMEBODY!!!ANYBODY!!!HELP~~~

I can only look forward to October right now...and I don't even know if I can still look forward to it...

-STUDY-