I'm alive!

Yes I am still alive for those who are wondering. Just that I'm freaking busy with work.

Heh. take care then.bye~~~

what to do what to do

arighty, besides the fact that i'm bored to tears at home, i'm not sure what to do about another thing.

i love my blog layout and stuff, but at the same time i think it's getting boring. so i dunno if i should change it...maybe learn what darling did and get a brighter, more cheerful layout. maybe it'll make life seem better...

Alrighty! Since Anggie has complaint of my blog turning rusty, I've decided to post something up in the midst of my very very extremely BORING life. Haha.

What I'm supposed to be doing but am NOT:

• finding a job
• making more accessories for sales online
• arranging photo albums dating from 2003
• packing my room
• forgetting my medicine
  

What I AM doing:

• cooking in the stead of my grandma(at least till 15th July)
• reading lots and lots of Chinese library books
• watching the last season of Grey's Anatomy
  
• ROTTING

This doesn't bode well does it? In fact, I think it sounds freaking bad. Sigh...

-goes back to rotting-

Lalalala

haha. in a pretty good mood today. nothing seems able to spoil my mood so far. heehee.

last minute decided to go for the internal showcase for my music school. wasn't very good performance cause i think i was too nervous and started singing too early, but considering the fact that i just had my forth lesson this morning before the showcase, not bad already la. haha.

haha. and i found out some stuff, or rather, found someone whom i thought i wouldn't see again. didn't really realise it till a little later after seeing him. hahaha. but well, it's just a little surprising to see him. not expecting anything. tired of putting myself through the whole disappointment time and again.

but well, it is indeed serendipity, as my fren once said. though she used it on carrot and me.

why in the world am i thinking about that anyway.

~dazed~

Wah...exams are finally OVER!!!! Haha. Though it was a short exam this semester, only about a week from start to end but somehow I was TOTALLY unprepared and so I was freaking out everyday before the papers. Hahz. But anyway, it's over. To all you babes out there still taking your papers, JIAYOU!!!!!!! You gals can do it! It'll be over soon, a few more days only. It'll be PARTY after that!!! Haha. Ok...need to make up on my sleep...

nightz world~~~

爱不在

Heard this song recently on the radio and I really liked it. The music was composed by David Tao and it's sung by his ex-lover Melody. How apt...

坐在这角落 心里很多话想说
我和你的错 就是舍不得放手

深爱你的我 早就应该让你自由
知道我以后 需要一直往前走

也许是越在乎 越会彼此地伤害
这样的爱情 又算是什么

爱不在 应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来

有时候 对爱有太深太多依赖
好像已失去在这世界 还能够 孤单地自由

是曾经有的梦 现在只剩一场空
心里好多疑问 你忘了你的承诺

笑我自己没有用 眼泪无言地流下来
始终还是要面对 这段感情的伤痛

是因为越在乎 给彼此伤害更多
有了距离以后 看到不同的你和我

爱不在 慢慢让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来

有时候 对你还是会有关怀
可是心里已经太明白 不是爱 不是爱

爱不在 应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来

有时候 不管对爱有多少的依赖
就算再不愿意在伤心 我明白 我们只能放手

爱不在

random

i'm just wondering...who are the people who reads my blog?besides the people on my list. are there people who chance upon here? people who searched for my name? people who linked their way here? i wonder i wonder....

post exams

bahz.exams were finally over last monday.haha.but i've been lazy to blog -grinz-

anyway.got a runny nose/blocked nose/sorethroat/cough/etc since around thursday i think.thanks t my brothers...and i'm supposed t go out tml!and wed gg clubbing and friday GOING JAPAN!!!!hope my nose will heal up soon :s

anyway.finally finished watching bleach.ok la.not finished as in 'finished'. but i've already watched up till what ever has been uploaded.just started on inuyasha.and maybe i'll watch goong too.haha.abit slow but...better than never.

oh man.i think i better go sleep soon.quite tired from blowing my nose the whole day.haha.lame excuse.but...ya.and i must remember to update the story.else ange and eunice will corner me when i get back in sg.lolz.

sayonara!!!

Dreams...scary ones.

i know i'm falling behind in my readings and stuff. but i jus have to blog this. took a break from mugging juz now. took a nap and had a scary dream. i dreamt that my grandma, my youngest brother, my cousin and i were in my dad's car, and he was speeding up a multi storey car park. basically, he was drifting all the way up! a few times he almost knocked into the wall. and finally, he lost control of his car and his car started to spin!!!! i was so freaked out! the first think i did was to ask everyone to huddle together. luckily my dad eventually stopped the car from spinning but i was so frightened!!!

which reminds me of another dream i had sometime last month. my whole family was in the car and my dad was drifting uphill AGAIN. but that time the car flew off the cliff and i remember the flipping sensation when the car was 'falling' down hill. somehow we all managed to escape unharmed(???) before the car crashed at the bottom of the hill(??????). but my youngest brother wasn't with us!!! and we went down hill to the car to find him. i don't remember what happened but i have this feeling that he too was found unharmed(?????????) in the dream.

omg...anyone who can decipher what these dreams mean?

exams...

i know i promised to be strong.but i'm at my limits and i'm not even seeing any possibility of at least a B-...and i'm only preparing for my second paper...i really have no idea how i'm going to remain sane til the end of this exam...

patching up

bahz...totally broke down the other day with all the presentation and stuff. but well, it's over and thanks to all you darlings who patted me on the back and gave me the strength to go on. now the exams are here, and come what may, i'll be strong and give my best with wadever little i haf.

everyone jiayou!it'll be over b4 you noe it! =)

this is super funny...

adopted kitties

was blog surfing when i came upon this blog on which the blogger adopted a virtual pet. so i went to the website and adopted pets too.

haha.there were quite some animals t choose from. but the tiger was the first to catch my eyes. so i adopted it.

and when i was playing with it, i saw the tag "get your pet a companion?", i clicked. haha.

this time round i saw the cat that i missed the first time cause of it's colour (dirty yellow -.-)

when i clicked on it, i realised that i could change its colour so i started playing around with the colours. until i hit black. and i decided my kitten shall be black and i shall name it hei hei in sweet memory of xiao hei, the well loved kitty in hall seven. it was cruelly killed a few weeks ago. some heartless, cold blooded creep strangled it with rubber bands.

some guys in the hall found it and buried it near block 39. and now they are looking for the murderer.

sometimes i just cannot understand how can anyone ever do such hurtful things to another living thing. even if you don't like cats or any other animals, there really is no need for you to hurt them. and whoever is this cold blooded murderer of xiao hei, i cant help but wish that you'll be caught and dealt with by the law.

i cant bring myself to forgive the asshole murderer. even if you can run from the law, may you live in guilt for the rest of your life.

extraordinary new age proposal =)

haha.found this on yahoo.it is super funny, super brave, but mostly, super sweet =)

p/s: click on the title ya? haha

Forbidden City: Portrait of an Empress

there's only one word to describe the musical:godly!!!

i wanna watch it again!!!but no money!!!(hint hint:anyone wanna sponsor me?)

and kit chan is...sigh...i cant think of any words that can describe her...her voice is heavenly...DAMN GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

the hifi set in my room is playing the ost again and again and again and...you get my point.haha.

I'M SUFFERING FROM FORBIDDEN CITY WITHDRAWAL SYMPTONS!!!!

anyway, there was this article in LIFE! that criticised the plot for not reflecting the truth of history.hmm.i mean, hello! first of all, this is but a musical. secondly, this story was based on the records of the painter who did a portrait for the empress, so don't criticise the producers. and also, like he said, it's history. and this is history dating back to over a hundred years, who knows what in the history records are true and what isn't? and he took hitler as a comparison. saying what if one day someone portrays him in a position of a victim of his environment and people starts to tae pity for him.

i mean like--huh? hitler's time wasn't tt far away for us to know his true story.there is sufficient and proper records of his story. and seriously, i think that even baddies in real life aren't born baddies. they turn baddies under the environment they grow in.

i think maybe he should try looking from different perspectives and not just from whatever history book he has read.

anyway, i really wanna watch the musical again!!!

from the musical:

"they've painted my face
they've chosen my past
they've nurtured my pride
in the role that they cast
but inside there's a place
a place that nobody knows

this is my only chance; love, open my heart
years of broken dreams, all in the past
this is my only chance; love, make me a part
of someone who shows me
he loves me and knows me at last"

"like children need their mothers
like rivers need a sea
like prisons need a key
like winter nights need fire
like temples need a shrine
like lovers need desire
like prophets need a sign

i need him
can't he see? i need him
to be mine"

"falling in love is just that
falling
out of control
of your heart and soul

falling in love is just that
falling
that's how it feels
falling head over heels

why love when love hurst?
why love when love ends?
i know how it feels
when it turns and pretends
it ends with the pain
and making amends
why love when there's peace
in the making of friends?"

"too late for me to say that i was wrong
perhaps the weak believe that they are strong
i thought that if i tried i'd find a way to earn their trust
yet all i've known and loved has turned to dust
it seems there was no way i could belong

the fire that burns within your heart
the pain that tears your life apart
the rain that falls from broken skies
the love i lost beneath the lies
and must i face the truth alone?
is this the end of all i've known?
the years i gave, the tears i cried
why dream of love, when love has died?"

lines from Bleach

"I have no way to ask about it...I have no elegant way of stepping into your heart to ask about that without tracking in filth."

"If I was the rain...would I be able to connect with someone's heart, like the rain connects the never-intersecting sky and earth?"

p/s:
"If I were the rain that binds together the earth and the sky, who in all eternity will never mingle...would I be able to bind the hearts of people together?"

random

hmmm.dreamt of him again yesterday.

dun remember what happened.

dun intend to remember.

over already

hmmm.my third crush has turned into the shortest-lived crush i've ever had.

in 43 days, i've decided to give up.

cause there's another gal in his heart.

perhaps it's better this way.

the gal is neither my fren nor myself.

it's someone i dun really noe.

now...i should start mugging once again...

dreamland

haha.had a great time at hall's dnd. gotta thank my dearest roomy and her mom for spending so much time on my hair.in e end my roomy dint noe wad t do w her own hair. :p thanks roomy.though i felt weird on the train to town and i looked like an afro after i let my hair down.but i still liked the way it went with my gown.love you!haha.

hmmmz.

eventually,dnd was pretty great except for some stuff.

shall not dwell on those stuff.haha.

but i dreamt of him again yday.this time i remember part of the dream.

and i realise he seems to give me the security juz by being there. even in my dreams.

disturbing

i took a nap this afternoon.

i had a dream.

i dreamt of hall.

i dreamt of him.

but i dun remember what happened in the dream.

this is disturbing...