原来在你心里我是这样的。。。

成绩不好，就是坏。

坦率，是无礼。

要自由，是不要家。

坚持，是任性。

同样是朋友，我的却是损友。

不一样的成绩单，却同样是我错。

我要的，只是偶尔的一句赞赏、多一点认同。

可是，原来一直以来，在你们心里，我似乎从没达到你们的要求。即使我再努力，好像都没用。反正，在你们心里， 我已经是这样的一个人，我做的一切，你们都已经认定是错的。那我又何必拼命的逼自己去做一个你们要的、却不是自己的我？

Please support IndulgenceLink*!

Hey everyone!

I've just started this online shop with my friend selling handmade accessories and we've just completed our very first series of earrings and placed them on the blog http://indulgencelink.wordpress.com. Please drop by and take a look and let me know what you think of it and how I'm doing. And also see if you like any of the items ok? Haha.

Anyway, about this first series, it's named Simple Indulgence*. It's name probably says everything. The items are all of very simple designs. Nothing too fanciful. A couple of reasons for this.

First of all, we're both newbies in the area of handmade accessories. Besides having worn them myself, I've never in my entire life made any accessories on my own. So this very first series of earrings is actually the very first few pairs of earrings my friend and I have made in our entire life!! So understandably, there's no way we can come up with anything fanciful right at this moment.

Also, the exams are just round the corner. There's absolutely insufficient time for us to learn those fanciful wire twisting or come up with anything jaw dropping within a short span of under a week. Yes, we actually used a very short 5 days to get this online shop running. We decided to set it up last Friday, so we spent the entire afternoon thinking of a name, looking for some bead shops, looking through reference books in the library and setting up our blog and email account. And the weekend was spent fine-tuning the details in the blog and email account, thinking of the general operation process and brainstorming for themes. Yes, believe me when I tell you I've got at least 20 themes right now.

I'm actually pretty surprised how I actually found the drive to rush out everything without any procrastination, besides the fact that my friend was breathing down my neck making sure I completed the blog. Somehow, I'm still puzzled by myself right now.

And anyway, shouldn't everything start simple? And slowly we'll move on to more complex stuff -excited-

Hahz. So people, please do give me some feedback and suggestions so that I can improve ok?

Haha. Tired right now...need to go zzz, there's class tomorrow morning. Nightz world!

Lost

Sometimes I try so hard not to remind myself. But the harder I try...the more it bugs me.

It sucks being stuck in something that I have absolutely lost interests in. Counting the days as it pass, wondering if I'll survive the remaining time or will I screw up and end up extending my nightmare.

I've never in my entire life been such a let down with no sense of guilt...

This just sucks.

p/s: And I'm starving...took my last meal 25 hours ago... -faint-

Spinning world

Oh Man~~~

I'm sick and feeling giddy. And the feeling has been there for 2 days now...Even after going to the doctor and taking medicine didn't really help.

And I have a quiz tomorrow...and presentation this friday...which hasn't been compiled yet.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THERE'S CONSOL QUIZ RIGHT AFTER NEXT WEEK'S BREAK!!!!!!!!!

SOMEBODY!!!ANYBODY!!!HELP~~~

I can only look forward to October right now...and I don't even know if I can still look forward to it...

-STUDY-

While waiting...

Was waiting for weinz and shiv yesterday. While waiting for them, I picked up a pen, took a piece of paper, and started scribbling.

It started with trying to write a song, but as I was listening to my mp3, nothing came out.

Then, I decided to write something for my next blog entry--

有时候，觉得自己好可笑。 总是口说一套， 心里想着另一套。

害怕

怕什么？是怕伤害？怕失望？还是怕。。。

自己的脑子， 难道不是我自己最清楚的吗？那为什么，我总是觉得，我最难了解的那个人，是自己？

有时候，就是觉得那么矛盾。

Then I felt that it was kinda short; it wasn't sufficient to reflect what I was thinking. So I started to scribble some of the things I wrote in the past and extended them...

开心就是喜欢吗？那为什么喜欢，总是那么痛？

“可以”就是“应该”吗？ “可以”做到的事，就“应该”去做吗？ “应该”做的事，就“喜欢”做吗？ “应该”是种责任，“喜欢”就是任性吗？

多愁善感不是种错，可为什么总是那么痛？ 为什么有错的人，总是那么无所谓？而为什么无辜的人总是得为这些错的人伤心难过？

And finally, I came to my conclusion of the day...

要是没有明天，我为什么还要为未来担心？

怕

我不想睡，不是怕明天的到来，而是怕今天的离去。

random~~~

Boo! Oh man. I've got loads of drafts sitting in my blogger dashboard waiting for me to complete and post up here, but somehow, whenever I sit down and look at them, I'll start remembering that I've got loads of other things to do. In fact, I'm supposed to be rushing some report right now. And I have barely started on it. Supposed to send it out in twenty minutes time X_x

Bahz. I dunno why, but I feel as though I'm starting to close up again. It's as if I'm starting to shut myself out from the outside world. Perhaps it's the time for me to sit down and do my periodical inner-self dialogue again. But every time I do that, I'll sink into a period of depression. And it seems to become harder for me to get out of those darks times nowadays. I dunno why, but there's always this feeling of uncertainty and helplessness surrounding me.

Shouldn't we live the life that we want? So WTF am I doing in Accountancy? I'm so wasting my own time. I could have done so much more within these three years.

Here goes, it's started without my knowing.

Depression time~~~ T_T

random

lalala.back from taipei!but v lazy t update.haha.and achool's started for a few days le~~~zzz

will try to update asap ok?hee.try la.

anyway.got offered hall...dunno whether t accept not...since i was already all prepared to end my hall life...sigh...any suggestions?