Sometimes I try so hard not to remind myself. But the harder I try...the more it bugs me.
It sucks being stuck in something that I have absolutely lost interests in. Counting the days as it pass, wondering if I'll survive the remaining time or will I screw up and end up extending my nightmare.
I've never in my entire life been such a let down with no sense of guilt...
This just sucks.
p/s: And I'm starving...took my last meal 25 hours ago... -faint-
Oh Man~~~
I'm sick and feeling giddy. And the feeling has been there for 2 days now...Even after going to the doctor and taking medicine didn't really help.
And I have a quiz tomorrow...and presentation this friday...which hasn't been compiled yet.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND THERE'S CONSOL QUIZ RIGHT AFTER NEXT WEEK'S BREAK!!!!!!!!!
SOMEBODY!!!ANYBODY!!!HELP~~~
I can only look forward to October right now...and I don't even know if I can still look forward to it...
-STUDY-
Was waiting for weinz and shiv yesterday. While waiting for them, I picked up a pen, took a piece of paper, and started scribbling.
It started with trying to write a song, but as I was listening to my mp3, nothing came out.
Then, I decided to write something for my next blog entry--
有时候，觉得自己好可笑。 总是口说一套， 心里想着另一套。
害怕
怕什么？是怕伤害？怕失望？还是怕。。。
自己的脑子， 难道不是我自己最清楚的吗？那为什么，我总是觉得，我最难了解的那个人，是自己？
有时候，就是觉得那么矛盾。
Then I felt that it was kinda short; it wasn't sufficient to reflect what I was thinking. So I started to scribble some of the things I wrote in the past and extended them...
开心就是喜欢吗？那为什么喜欢，总是那么痛？
“可以”就是“应该”吗？ “可以”做到的事，就“应该”去做吗？ “应该”做的事，就“喜欢”做吗？ “应该”是种责任，“喜欢”就是任性吗？
多愁善感不是种错，可为什么总是那么痛？ 为什么有错的人，总是那么无所谓？而为什么无辜的人总是得为这些错的人伤心难过？
And finally, I came to my conclusion of the day...
要是没有明天，我为什么还要为未来担心？
怕
我不想睡，不是怕明天的到来，而是怕今天的离去。
Boo! Oh man. I've got loads of drafts sitting in my blogger dashboard waiting for me to complete and post up here, but somehow, whenever I sit down and look at them, I'll start remembering that I've got loads of other things to do. In fact, I'm supposed to be rushing some report right now. And I have barely started on it. Supposed to send it out in twenty minutes time X_x
Bahz. I dunno why, but I feel as though I'm starting to close up again. It's as if I'm starting to shut myself out from the outside world. Perhaps it's the time for me to sit down and do my periodical inner-self dialogue again. But every time I do that, I'll sink into a period of depression. And it seems to become harder for me to get out of those darks times nowadays. I dunno why, but there's always this feeling of uncertainty and helplessness surrounding me.
Shouldn't we live the life that we want? So WTF am I doing in Accountancy? I'm so wasting my own time. I could have done so much more within these three years.
Here goes, it's started without my knowing.
Depression time~~~ T_T
lalala.back from taipei!but v lazy t update.haha.and achool's started for a few days le~~~zzz
will try to update asap ok?hee.try la.
anyway.got offered hall...dunno whether t accept not...since i was already all prepared to end my hall life...sigh...any suggestions?
First things first, I'M GOING TO TAIWAN WITH TIAN AND JASM!!!!!!!! So excited!!! First time taking plane without my parents!!! Haha.
Anyway, there was this Live Earth thingy around the world yesterday, wasn't there? I kinda think it was really good that the media is finally taking the initiative to do something for the environment.
However, I still think it was kind of a flop. The concerts were supposed to be telling people to be more environmentally friendly. But right after the concerts, the people simply left LOADS of TRASH behind. Lots of them non-environmentally friendly too. I mean, hello? The message doesn't seem to have been brought across apparently? These people were just there for the show! Sigh. Seems like it's going to take a long while before people really become environmentally aware.
The question now is, how long can our Earth wait?
Then, was watching the news about the new 7 wonders. I almost went crazy.
What exactly does 'wonder' mean to you? Shouldn't it be something that is so amazing in the sense that it's almost impossible to imagine how in the world people at the time of construction could have managed to pull it off so perfectly? It shouldn't just be something people thinks look nice or it has a great meaning behind it right?
I mean, I'm not saying that the meaning and stuff is not important, but, what's it with the Christ Redeemer being one of the wonders? I have absolutely nothing against the statue, or Brazil, or Christians, or even Christ. But, may I know in what way is it considered a 'wonder'? I'm still trying VERY hard to see how it fits into the 'wonder' category. I mean, shouldn't something like the Egyptian Pyramids make a much better candidate as a 'wonder'? Up till now, people still find it unthinkable how Egyptians back then could have built such an architecture with boulders larger than themselves using the technology back then.
I mean, shouldn't something be considered a 'wonder' cause it 'makes you wonder how in the world did they manage it with whatever they had', rather than 'make you wonder how in the world did it get into the list'?
Now THAT, really makes me wonder...
Well, anyway, anyhow, I'm gonna go back to discussing my taiwan trip with tian and jasm. TTFN~~
