夢...醒了

曾經, 我相信愛情.
曾經, 我相信真愛.
曾經, 我相信婚姻.
曾經, 我相信天長地久.

現在, 我都不信了.

愛情, 只是短暫的.
真愛, 根本不純在.
婚姻, 只是一張紙.
天長地久...不可能.

-心會痛,代表心沒死.心沒死,代表有希望.有希望,代表夢沒醒...-

emo-ing

my birthday celebrations ended with a bang yesterday. was really happy, will blog about my entire celebrations later when i have the time. but meanwhile, i'm not really in the mood to blog about the happy times i had in the past week.

somehow, i just feel kinda down. feeling lonely and lost all of a sudden. you know that kinda feeling where it's as though you're not needed. and no matter where you are, no matter how many people there are around you, you just feel lonely. it's not supposed to be this way la. i just spent a wonderful week surrounded by friends and family so why in the world am i feeling this way?

sigh. maybe it's the realisation that there are alot of stuff which are out of my control? and somehow i'm not doing enough and not trying hard enough. somehow, it's just the realisation that even with an idea of what i want to do, somehow things may not be what i want it to be.

somehow i just feel so useless.

counting down...

woohoo!!!in less than 13 hours i'll be 21!! bahz. supposed to have chalet last friday. but my procrastination landed me with the decision to forgo the chalet since i couldn't prepare everything in time. BIG lesson learnt. bahz. think tml will be another boring day again since absolutely no one has asked me out tml. so sad...sighz. shall see howz ba. lucky this week is my recess week. else i wonder where got time t meet up with everyone. haha. this week already not enough time to meet up with everyone le. so many dinner t attend. hahz. anywayz. shall post on my bday tml. hahaz. looking forward to dinner at my uncle's place later. going t celebrate both our birthdays, though he's like 22 years older than me? hahz.

ciaoz

討厭我自己!!!!!

天阿! 我曾幾何時變成了這麼一個人阿!怎麼會變成這樣的嘛!!!!!

實在看不起這樣的我...我實在討厭這樣的自己!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

怎麼會這樣阿.............

不孤单的情人节

这个情人节我并不孤单！因为有朋友们陪我一起度过。虽然并不是我最最最知心的好友，但能在这个本来寂寞的夜晚找到人陪也是件不错的是哦！

今天下了课，便和宝贝慧仪到超市去找她的同学们。虽然说是她的同学，但其实我和他们也曾是一个学期的同班同学，所以也能说是我的同学吧。

天啊！我觉得我好像喝多了。怎么好像有点语无伦次了？总之我们后来在星空下一边吃火锅，一边看电视听歌，还喝了点小酒。感觉真棒！！可是我好像喝多了点，脸好红哦！哈哈。

我想我因该早点去休息吧。明天还要去跑步、买飞轮海的写真手札、k歌！而且明天还有另一轮的火锅呢！

虽然在情人节的这天，我是单身的。但有时却觉得，单身的情人节似乎过得更快乐、更充实哦！

情人节过了，但还是要在这里祝大家，情人节快乐！爱情长久、友情永固！

要快乐哦!!!

爱着你们的。。。
hermitzzz

病了

大家真的要好好照顾自己哦。下星期就过新年了，我却病倒了。喉咙好痛。。。头也痛。天啊， 救救我吧！

edited(add-ons)

卧病在床
昏昏沉沉
似乎看见你的脸
颤抖的手一伸出
才发现梦已熄灭

Dreamz

Was watching the finals for Project Superstar, was rooting for Diya. Though she wasn't first for the overall competition, I want to congratulate her for having come so far. I want to congratulate all the other competitors as well for having the courage to take that first step. Well done all of you. You've won the most important competition-the internal one.

I seriously think it takes courage to actually take the initiative to join such competitions. For this, I take my hat off my friends-XW, TJ, ZK and PJ. Won't mention names, but you know who you are and I really admire your courage.

Well, anyway, went shopping with Ange and Eunice yesterday. Was a very happy girl after the shopping spree (my daddy wasn't a very happy man though. Haha)

Bought this floral dress at this new shopping mall Square 2. Was actually reconsidering it for awhile since I seriously doubt I'll wear it again after CNY. But, oh well, my desire to own it overruled all other rational thoughts, and I bought it. Mummy thought it's quite worth it and it's pretty too. Haha.

Then we went over to Vivocity to shop. Saw this Hong Kong actor who was so cute performing on stage so we stood there and started snapping pictures of him. Then we started to ask each other what's his name. We eventually hushed up since it didn't made sense that we were so near the crowd of people snapping pictures(we being part of it) and asking aloud who in the world is he. Haha.

First stop-ZARA. Oh! I forgot to mention this. When I was trying out the dress at Square 2(at Novena), my favourite pink small jacket got 'injured'. It was a knitted piece so the edges were held together with a piece of the string. But somehow, the string got pulled out of place so the jacket had a hole under my right arm :( So I had to walk around in my sleeveless top (YUCKS!!!!) So the first thing I did at Vivo was to start searching for something to wear over my top. So at ZARA I saw this purple and brown stripped off-shoulder top which I thought wasn't too bad. But I didn't uy it since it was really a little on the ex side. And I had discount coupons to Topshop. So why pay more? Haha. So after leaving ZARA empty handed(all three of us), we headed over to Topshop!!!

Second stop-Topshop. Haha. This was where the THREE of us went wild. Ok, it wasn't that bad, but we were really in the 'we are going to buy something here for sure' mentality somehow when we stepped into the shop. So we started to pick out clothes to try on. AND!!!! I saw this...My very first reaction was:ey... Then when I tried it on, Ange was like:that is SO you... And I really liked it! As in, even before Ange said that I already really liked it. Haha. So I held on to it and didn't let go the whole time when we were in Topshop. Finally, I called my mom and asked if I should get it(it costs 80 over dollars even after discount X_x). And when she gave me the OK(that is if I think I'll wear it quite often, which I seriously believe I will), I decided on the spot to buy it. And I bought another pink long top and a purple skull canvass sling bag which I think is super cool!! Haha.

Had lots of fun shopping with the girls, though I had to leave early, I totally enjoyed myself. Especially the talks we had while waiting outside the fitting room and on the train. And standing in the middle of the shop undecided on which item to buy and which item to put back. Haha. Fun fun fun. We should really do this more often.

Oh! I went for a haircut yesterday too. Nothing very drastic, still long hair. But now it's no longer as straight since quite abit was cut off from the front and back. This is basically how I look right now.

Haha. I look funny...somehow. BIG HEAD!!!!!!!!!

Nightz world!