傻笑。。。

~dreamy~

SO CUTE~~~

even though the source...

If life was a module...

What would be the topic for your thesis?

崩溃...

Back from HK~!

Alright...I know this update is not very updating...since I returned last Friday. LOLZ. But oh well...I thought I should at least mention it since my blog is collecting dust again...

But looking at the time now...I don't think I'm going to update too much regarding my trip now. Probably tomorrow or the day after. Haha.

Alrighty~To those taking their exams soon...JIAYOU~!!!!

To those struggling with work...JIAYOU TOO~!!!!

Take care peeps~!

A night of tears and laughter

Yes, a night of tears and laughter - literally.

Went for "My Sister's Keeper" w the gals yesterday night. Cried buckets throughout the show until the climax where the sis dies, and Shiv's "HUH?!?!" got half the cinema including us bursting out laughing. ROFL. I was literally crying and laughing at the same time. Thanks Shiv. Hahahaha.

And right after the show we went for dinner/supper at Ashton's. We were laughing so hard, Anggie choked on her food and I had a migraine. Gosh~ biggest credit goes to Eunice's VERY creative imagination. LMAO~!

Well~it was a great evening~ love u gals loads~!!!

Lonely~

I've never felt like this...

At least for a long time I haven't felt like this...

This strong sense of loneliness...

It was always filled w people...

People who understood or pretended to...

Now....

There isn't even any pretense....

Haven't updated in awhile. But as I sat there staring at my blog, I realise I have always been blogging about rather extreme stuff.

So now that my life is rather...stagnant, I have no idea what to blog about. Except...maybe, extreme boredom? =P

该放手了吧。。。

心， 好痛。 泪，不停地溜。

原来那次的关怀，真的只是愧疚的施舍。。。

我真的可以放手了吗？

Lingering affections~~

Why was he the first person that I thought of when I was so very ill and wondering what would it be like to just leave everything behind?

Why was he the one that appeared in my dreams when I was feeling so very lost...

Why was it also him who gave me that sense of security when i need it most?

...and I thought I had officially gotten over him?

So what's with this lingering affection?

THE emptiness that tears can't fill...

Clinging on to memory, it's just like trying to hold water in your hands- it just keeps trickling away until one day, you realise what you're holding on to is nothing but emptiness, because everything has trickled away.

The interesting thing that I've realise is this: this emptiness used to be really small, cause feelings never felt real enough and everything felt so childish. But as I grew, thoughts became more matured and feelings felt more real; so real that it almost felt as though it'll stay, so I opened up and held on to more. Until one day I realise it's just another de javu and whatever I thought I was holding on to turns into nothingness once again.

If you're wondering if this is about relationship, it is indeed about relationship. But it isn't just about BGR. It's about every other relationship in our lives- kinship, friendship, any relationship that exists between people and people, even between people and items, animals, events, etc.

I've always wanted to stay that young girl- not having to worry about anything much because I believe everything will turn out right; only having to think about how to let the people around me be happy.

I've always wondered why people aren't happy...somehow...I feel I understand now.

《寂寞光年》- 刘力扬

是谁从我天空摘走了星星 一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑 忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦一路上不断的俯冲 痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

*漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过 我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔 融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落 锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手 陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴 天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里 忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空 精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

*Repeat

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没 整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走 带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求 还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

light headed~

3 Martinis in Acid Bar w my roomy and everything doesn't seem to matter anymore~!

~dreamy~

西界

阳光越过窗沿
我在阴影里面
才过正午十三点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面

只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在这夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你能够看我一眼

OUT OF TOWN...

From the 18th may through 21st May.

Destination: Tioman

Current Mood: Sleepy and excited =D

Cya in 4 days time~

<<猜不透>> - 丁当

猜不透　你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透　相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的 是热的

如果乎远乎近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果乎冷乎热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追求
越是在乎的人 越是猜不透

Disillusioned...

Just when I thought that relationships was the only things that can't withstand trials...I realised that it applies to friendship and kinship as well...

I'm not asking for anything more than your trust...your trust that what I'm doing is not for me but for you...

Have I lost a right to that trust just because I can now exercise the right to do something for you...

Then why in the world did I make this choice from the start?

23rd~~~

Thank you one and all for the well wishes and presents and lovely gestures =)

I'm truly grateful =D

Thanks to all who sent me birthday wishes over sms...

Thanks to all who sent me birthday wishes over FB...

Thanks to all who wished me happy birthday in person...

Thanks to all who took the effort to get the presents for me...

Thanks to all who took the effort to organise dinner/bbq for me...

Thanks to everyone who have been there for me all these while...

Thanks to Jasmine and Tian for spending a wonderful evening with me down by Clarke Quay. It was a really soothing night leading to my birthday =)

Thanks to the finexians who sent out of their way to treat me to lunch and have dinner with me when my appointment couldn't make it.

Thanks to my lovely gang who took the effort to organise a surprise bbq for me. Though it ended off on a weird note, I'm so grateful I had all of you there for me. I promise I'll be a stronger person from here on and I will learn INDEPENDENCE!!! And don't worry, I think I'm still straight la =D

Once again, thank you one and all. I've grown a year older and I will be stronger =)

我还想他

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺获

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话

别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺获

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话

别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心 早已掏空
真心话 言不由衷

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话

别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

别告诉他 我还想他
就让沉默 代替所有回答

矜持

我从来不曾抗拒你的魅力
虽然你从来不曾对我着迷
我总是微笑的看着你
我的情意总是轻易就洋溢眼底

我曾经想过在寂寞的夜里
你终于在意在我的房间里
你闭上眼睛亲吻了我
不说一句紧紧抱我在你的怀里

我是爱你的 我爱你到底
生平第一次 我放下矜持
任凭自己幻想一切关于我和你

你是爱我的 你爱我到底
生平第一次 我放下矜持
相信自己真的可以深深去爱你
深深去爱你

NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD!!!!!!!!

Even though I know I'm like rather late in saying this now, hahahaha. But oh well, as the saying goes, better late than never!!! Muahahaha

Anyway! REally glad it's the new year~~~

Why?

I also dunno why!?!?!

But I got a new wardrobe!!!!!!!

Not the contents la~~~sadly...but I'm getting a bigger wardrobe!!! Means -hopefully- the weight of my clothes won't cause my wardrobe to collapse again!!!

And I'm getting new shelves too!! Means I gotta clear all my stuff!!! Means ALOT O THINGS ARE GOING TO BE THROWN AWAY!!!!! -emo-

I hate throwing away stuff. Cause I'll be throwing away part of my past, part of my memories...

But oh well...life's long...if the old don't go...the new won't come!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahaha. So gotta clear out most of my old stuff I guess....