While waiting...

Was waiting for weinz and shiv yesterday. While waiting for them, I picked up a pen, took a piece of paper, and started scribbling.

It started with trying to write a song, but as I was listening to my mp3, nothing came out.

Then, I decided to write something for my next blog entry--

有时候，觉得自己好可笑。 总是口说一套， 心里想着另一套。

害怕

怕什么？是怕伤害？怕失望？还是怕。。。

自己的脑子， 难道不是我自己最清楚的吗？那为什么，我总是觉得，我最难了解的那个人，是自己？

有时候，就是觉得那么矛盾。

Then I felt that it was kinda short; it wasn't sufficient to reflect what I was thinking. So I started to scribble some of the things I wrote in the past and extended them...

开心就是喜欢吗？那为什么喜欢，总是那么痛？

“可以”就是“应该”吗？ “可以”做到的事，就“应该”去做吗？ “应该”做的事，就“喜欢”做吗？ “应该”是种责任，“喜欢”就是任性吗？

多愁善感不是种错，可为什么总是那么痛？ 为什么有错的人，总是那么无所谓？而为什么无辜的人总是得为这些错的人伤心难过？

And finally, I came to my conclusion of the day...

要是没有明天，我为什么还要为未来担心？

怕

我不想睡，不是怕明天的到来，而是怕今天的离去。

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Boo! Oh man. I've got loads of drafts sitting in my blogger dashboard waiting for me to complete and post up here, but somehow, whenever I sit down and look at them, I'll start remembering that I've got loads of other things to do. In fact, I'm supposed to be rushing some report right now. And I have barely started on it. Supposed to send it out in twenty minutes time X_x

Bahz. I dunno why, but I feel as though I'm starting to close up again. It's as if I'm starting to shut myself out from the outside world. Perhaps it's the time for me to sit down and do my periodical inner-self dialogue again. But every time I do that, I'll sink into a period of depression. And it seems to become harder for me to get out of those darks times nowadays. I dunno why, but there's always this feeling of uncertainty and helplessness surrounding me.

Shouldn't we live the life that we want? So WTF am I doing in Accountancy? I'm so wasting my own time. I could have done so much more within these three years.

Here goes, it's started without my knowing.

Depression time~~~ T_T

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lalala.back from taipei!but v lazy t update.haha.and achool's started for a few days le~~~zzz

will try to update asap ok?hee.try la.

anyway.got offered hall...dunno whether t accept not...since i was already all prepared to end my hall life...sigh...any suggestions?