A night of tears and laughter

Yes, a night of tears and laughter - literally.

Went for "My Sister's Keeper" w the gals yesterday night. Cried buckets throughout the show until the climax where the sis dies, and Shiv's "HUH?!?!" got half the cinema including us bursting out laughing. ROFL. I was literally crying and laughing at the same time. Thanks Shiv. Hahahaha.

And right after the show we went for dinner/supper at Ashton's. We were laughing so hard, Anggie choked on her food and I had a migraine. Gosh~ biggest credit goes to Eunice's VERY creative imagination. LMAO~!

Well~it was a great evening~ love u gals loads~!!!

Lonely~

I've never felt like this...

At least for a long time I haven't felt like this...

This strong sense of loneliness...

It was always filled w people...

People who understood or pretended to...

Now....

There isn't even any pretense....

Haven't updated in awhile. But as I sat there staring at my blog, I realise I have always been blogging about rather extreme stuff.

So now that my life is rather...stagnant, I have no idea what to blog about. Except...maybe, extreme boredom? =P

该放手了吧。。。

心， 好痛。 泪，不停地溜。

原来那次的关怀，真的只是愧疚的施舍。。。

我真的可以放手了吗？

Lingering affections~~

Why was he the first person that I thought of when I was so very ill and wondering what would it be like to just leave everything behind?

Why was he the one that appeared in my dreams when I was feeling so very lost...

Why was it also him who gave me that sense of security when i need it most?

...and I thought I had officially gotten over him?

So what's with this lingering affection?

THE emptiness that tears can't fill...

Clinging on to memory, it's just like trying to hold water in your hands- it just keeps trickling away until one day, you realise what you're holding on to is nothing but emptiness, because everything has trickled away.

The interesting thing that I've realise is this: this emptiness used to be really small, cause feelings never felt real enough and everything felt so childish. But as I grew, thoughts became more matured and feelings felt more real; so real that it almost felt as though it'll stay, so I opened up and held on to more. Until one day I realise it's just another de javu and whatever I thought I was holding on to turns into nothingness once again.

If you're wondering if this is about relationship, it is indeed about relationship. But it isn't just about BGR. It's about every other relationship in our lives- kinship, friendship, any relationship that exists between people and people, even between people and items, animals, events, etc.

I've always wanted to stay that young girl- not having to worry about anything much because I believe everything will turn out right; only having to think about how to let the people around me be happy.

I've always wondered why people aren't happy...somehow...I feel I understand now.

《寂寞光年》- 刘力扬

是谁从我天空摘走了星星 一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑 忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦一路上不断的俯冲 痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

*漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过 我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔 融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落 锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手 陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴 天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里 忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空 精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

*Repeat

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没 整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走 带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求 还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由