Why was he the first person that I thought of when I was so very ill and wondering what would it be like to just leave everything behind?
Why was he the one that appeared in my dreams when I was feeling so very lost...
Why was it also him who gave me that sense of security when i need it most?
...and I thought I had officially gotten over him?
So what's with this lingering affection?
Clinging on to memory, it's just like trying to hold water in your hands- it just keeps trickling away until one day, you realise what you're holding on to is nothing but emptiness, because everything has trickled away.
The interesting thing that I've realise is this: this emptiness used to be really small, cause feelings never felt real enough and everything felt so childish. But as I grew, thoughts became more matured and feelings felt more real; so real that it almost felt as though it'll stay, so I opened up and held on to more. Until one day I realise it's just another de javu and whatever I thought I was holding on to turns into nothingness once again.
If you're wondering if this is about relationship, it is indeed about relationship. But it isn't just about BGR. It's about every other relationship in our lives- kinship, friendship, any relationship that exists between people and people, even between people and items, animals, events, etc.
I've always wanted to stay that young girl- not having to worry about anything much because I believe everything will turn out right; only having to think about how to let the people around me be happy.
I've always wondered why people aren't happy...somehow...I feel I understand now.
是谁从我天空摘走了星星 一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑 忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦一路上不断的俯冲 痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
*漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过 我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔 融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落 锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手 陪着我期待消失的彩虹
是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴 天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里 忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空 精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊
*Repeat
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没 整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走 带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求 还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由
3 Martinis in Acid Bar w my roomy and everything doesn't seem to matter anymore~!
~dreamy~
阳光越过窗沿
我在阴影里面
才过正午十三点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面
只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手
因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线
在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在这夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你能够看我一眼
From the 18th may through 21st May.
Destination: Tioman
Current Mood: Sleepy and excited =D
Cya in 4 days time~
猜不透 你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁
猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的 是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追求
越是在乎的人 越是猜不透
