I never knew the true feeling of disappointment until now.
I don't even want to talk to you about it. Even when you ask. Everything just feels too late. No matter what you say no matter what you do. Somethings can never be undone.
It used to be something so detached that made me disappointed in you. Now, the feeling just won't go away.
Now I understand how it feels to be unwanted.
成绩不好，就是坏。
坦率，是无礼。
要自由，是不要家。
坚持，是任性。
同样是朋友，我的却是损友。
不一样的成绩单，却同样是我错。
我要的，只是偶尔的一句赞赏、多一点认同。
可是，原来一直以来，在你们心里，我似乎从没达到你们的要求。即使我再努力，好像都没用。反正，在你们心里， 我已经是这样的一个人，我做的一切，你们都已经认定是错的。那我又何必拼命的逼自己去做一个你们要的、却不是自己的我？
Hey everyone!
I've just started this online shop with my friend selling handmade accessories and we've just completed our very first series of earrings and placed them on the blog http://indulgencelink.wordpress.com. Please drop by and take a look and let me know what you think of it and how I'm doing. And also see if you like any of the items ok? Haha.
Anyway, about this first series, it's named Simple Indulgence*. It's name probably says everything. The items are all of very simple designs. Nothing too fanciful. A couple of reasons for this.
First of all, we're both newbies in the area of handmade accessories. Besides having worn them myself, I've never in my entire life made any accessories on my own. So this very first series of earrings is actually the very first few pairs of earrings my friend and I have made in our entire life!! So understandably, there's no way we can come up with anything fanciful right at this moment.
Also, the exams are just round the corner. There's absolutely insufficient time for us to learn those fanciful wire twisting or come up with anything jaw dropping within a short span of under a week. Yes, we actually used a very short 5 days to get this online shop running. We decided to set it up last Friday, so we spent the entire afternoon thinking of a name, looking for some bead shops, looking through reference books in the library and setting up our blog and email account. And the weekend was spent fine-tuning the details in the blog and email account, thinking of the general operation process and brainstorming for themes. Yes, believe me when I tell you I've got at least 20 themes right now.
I'm actually pretty surprised how I actually found the drive to rush out everything without any procrastination, besides the fact that my friend was breathing down my neck making sure I completed the blog. Somehow, I'm still puzzled by myself right now.
And anyway, shouldn't everything start simple? And slowly we'll move on to more complex stuff -excited-
Hahz. So people, please do give me some feedback and suggestions so that I can improve ok?
Haha. Tired right now...need to go zzz, there's class tomorrow morning. Nightz world!
Sometimes I try so hard not to remind myself. But the harder I try...the more it bugs me.
It sucks being stuck in something that I have absolutely lost interests in. Counting the days as it pass, wondering if I'll survive the remaining time or will I screw up and end up extending my nightmare.
I've never in my entire life been such a let down with no sense of guilt...
This just sucks.
p/s: And I'm starving...took my last meal 25 hours ago... -faint-
