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hmmm.dreamt of him again yesterday.

dun remember what happened.

dun intend to remember.

over already

hmmm.my third crush has turned into the shortest-lived crush i've ever had.

in 43 days, i've decided to give up.

cause there's another gal in his heart.

perhaps it's better this way.

the gal is neither my fren nor myself.

it's someone i dun really noe.

now...i should start mugging once again...

dreamland

haha.had a great time at hall's dnd. gotta thank my dearest roomy and her mom for spending so much time on my hair.in e end my roomy dint noe wad t do w her own hair. :p thanks roomy.though i felt weird on the train to town and i looked like an afro after i let my hair down.but i still liked the way it went with my gown.love you!haha.

hmmmz.

eventually,dnd was pretty great except for some stuff.

shall not dwell on those stuff.haha.

but i dreamt of him again yday.this time i remember part of the dream.

and i realise he seems to give me the security juz by being there. even in my dreams.

disturbing

i took a nap this afternoon.

i had a dream.

i dreamt of hall.

i dreamt of him.

but i dun remember what happened in the dream.

this is disturbing...

conclusion?

he's a god damned BASTARD.

i should forget him.

i have to...

it's getting on my nerves...

what's wad?

i juz found out a friend likes him too.

she doesn't know i like him.

and she keeps talking about him in front of me.

how am i supposed t feel?

carrot...number 2?

well, been ages since i last updated my blog. had hall foc the week before and school started last week.

nothing much really happened last week. just the usual stuff about getting back to school and meeting some new people.

in fact, i didn't really meet alot o new people.

i hardly knew anyone.

anyway.during hall foc, kinda got to know this guy.actually, i knew him from before.but i got to know him better during camp.then again, i didn't really get to know him during camp. it was seniors camp.

hmmm.actually it's been ages since i met a guy who set my heart racing.

the last guy was carrot.

after him, my heart kinda lost its ability to race for any guy.

then after more then a year, this guy comes along, and my heart is starting to race again.

but.

i hate this...

but the whole feeling i'm getting from this is that, it's gonna be a re-enaction of what happened between me and carrot.

and somehow, i think it's true.

and i guess i can come to the conclusion that: i've once again regained my heart---the over-sensitive one that races for the wrong reasons.

coming to think of it. i'm also afraid.

i really don't want to go through another carrot experience.

the heartache sucks.i hate it.