filial piety?

today we celebrated my grandma's 70th birthday.

or rather, supposed to celebrate.

in my family, when we say celebrate, it's usually juz a simple family gathering with food and wine.

that's perfectly fine with me. i mean, being simple families, what more do you expect?in fact, i pretty like that.

except for the fact that everytime we go for such gatherings, someone'll end up in a bad mood.

and usually, it's him.

just like today.

i just don't understand why in the world does he bother to put up a front. he does all the things expected of a son.he organize, he buy, he pay, he appears.

but he doesn't participate.

i mean, i'll give him the benefit of the doubt. he is a nice person to hang around with during SOME gatherings, but not always.

granted. today he was tired. but does that give him the right to pull a long face and sit in a corner sulking and start glaring at my brothers and me?i mean, come on. stop trying to act the filial son when all you think about is yourself-how you'll be affected, how people will think of you.

if you're so unwilling to be around some people and you are so unwilling to stay and allow your own MOTHER enjoy some peaceful times without any unhappiness. please, don't bother to put on the front. no one will be grateful to you for destroying their day.

update

lalala.hall foc next week.and my throat's starting to feel sore...no idea why...was it the lack o slp?the alcohol?or the screaming at zouk?haha.never mind that.

looking forward to camp.haha.

enjoy wadever's left of your hols pple.school's reopening soon...whether you like it or not.

falling

today, or rather, yesterday, i witnessed the falling of someone dear to me. someone whom i've always admired, someone whom i've always looked upon as a yardstick for finding a bf/husband.

he was dearer then my father. he was more like my father then my own father. even after he had his own kids.

no. his fall didn't just occur yesterday. yesterday was just a literal fall. but his fall from an eligible bachelor is wad i meant. indeed, he was once featured on a magazine as one of the top (dunno how many) eligible bachelor. that was years ago.

his fall started with his first failed marriage.

then his failed business venture.

his second marriage is proving too violent to handle.

and he doesn't seem to understand that even relatives cannot be trusted when it comes to business ventures.

i'll never forget the night when i tried to break their fight. it pains me deeply to see him reduced to his present state.

yes. he has finally got a decent enough job.

but he no longer drives his own car. he rents one.

and he no longer drives to work. his wife drives it.

he takes a bus and train to work.

no. there really isn't anything wrong with taking public transport.

but seeing how he has been reduced from an eligible bachelor to a man facing his middle-aged crisis, i cant seem to will the pain away.

he had to chase after an SBS bus...

he fell down while chasing the bus...

i witnessed it.

and i dunno how to react...

how could something so dear to me change so much?